Kap Marvin
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THE OCEAN REJECTS NO TEARS
you taught me never to talk back
that it is ok for a boy to cry
i cried into the twelve notes of the spheres
you taught me that was too depressing
my deft roses furled
i cried with my fists
you denounced that too
(never your bombs)
you told me to get a job
dismissed me one by one
i cried with ink
you taught me that was not fit to writ
i cried with the flowers
you just won't liberate
what only hurts myself
i cried in colour
i cried in black and white
you taught me i just ripped off Rothko
that i wasn't outgoing or bubbly enough
i cried from a script
you taught me i am brown
i cried with laughter
you taught me i was sick
and made no sense
i cried with my body
you taught me that is dirty
and that my body is fat
i cried with love
you taught me no one cares for that
now i cry to no one
i will cry when i am dead
"fare thee well", i'll write
in a note that cries
"i'm happy", i'll sing
in a song that weeps
"i love you", i'll scream
in a fight that breaks
"i can do this", i'll confirm
in a job that pays
"i love myself", i will affirm
sober as a judge
smiling, i'll be seen
in a painting of a photograph
of a photograph of a drawing
"to be", i will bellow
in a theatre of kindness
sweetly, i will laugh
in a comedy of innocence
my body will cry
in a box like you always wanted
you won't have to see my tears
for the ocean they are dumped in